if the late night yogurt with blueberries
   if ?
-there's a pile of dishes by the bed
             my stomach is gurgling
             these new meds make me burp
             a lot
 I'm in avoidance
   but I have doctor appointments
      somehow I manage to fit it all in
      that and smoking
    it gets me through the day
           I don't listen to music much any more
           when did that stop?
                            I never could really listen to jazz
                            sometimes just endless solo bop biddly bop biddly
                   what does this have to do with anything?
      you tell me
 I don't have to be at work tomorrow
   I've got time