I sat 

Onward

                  Onward Bound!

       My bags were heaped in the

         corner 

     a dog sniffed

       my leg

   I order 

 The orders

      The brigadier general

        died

      It was very sad

                           We talked where to have lunch

    Onward! 

Onward Bound!

 The deep

dark cavern

Of endless

sadness or not

rocks are beautiful

My epitaph

  Gold doesn't decay

So they say

  Made in times gone bye

By on old woman at a sewing machine 

  Fingers callused and clean 

dirty nails 

Stupid whore!

 Ooch!

I hurt my toe!

Ouch!

That hurts!

 I was probably

Two or three years old

We lived in the Frost house

It had parquet hardwood floors-

  I pulled up one of the wood tiles with 

a bathroom plunger 

I thought I'd broken the floor-

I cried

You saw what I'd done 

and laughed

 The Pleasure Palace

    was a building in honor of corn

you got mad when I laughed about it

You went there on your honeymoon 

Car camping trip

I said look at it

How could not think it was funny?

It looked like a Russian Red Square building

W twirling pirouette pointy crown-

  It's still there you said-

Earth Wind and Fire were playing on

My birthday

 

 Perhaps I was mad

Crazy like-

not angry

Nature 

    What was that?

It seemed giving

Non judgmental 

-Could be harsh though

Fuck that wind and rain and mudslides and drowning

Stuff like that

Isn't natures fault

I blame Physics

 Creep 101

It was a large classroom

In a large cement building

Someone said it was Brutalism

I liked the stark concrete

It had a neutral quality

When I tried to discuss it with a friend 

She just said "What?!"

And I had to rethink my whole way

Of thinking 

Or I had to not talk about certain things

With her

 Mom said-

"You've got a story for everything!"

I don't think it was complimentary. 

She never swore so it was probably her way of saying-

You're full of shit!

 

 

 I stretched

the sky

   bloodied my tooth

on your rock hard neck vein

Sorry bout that

I didn't realize you were frozen

or made of stone!

Sometimes looks are deceiving 

 

 

 The ancient

  Truth

was not even revealed

 Scorn and fury 

replaced it with ease

   So we sold our shares

and lived in condos

 Drank Mai tais 

  And slept 

Well

 

 What am I doing?

another day

another two cents 

In the bucket

another crying jag

Or not 

Who knows 

boredom is the person bored

I'm boring so I'm bored

Revelation? Hardly

My drinking days are done

Cigarettes?

Out

No drugs

Well Tylenol extra strength

I'm barely holding on

So what

Nobody gives a royal fuck

So I paint a little

Eat a little

Walk a little

Another day

I did drink with my cousin

Ended up driving on the Powell street

Cable car turnaround 

and backed into a pole 

Turning around 

WHAM!

No worse for the wear

Most fun I've had in a while-

 Don't

ECHO

Zin

Mmm

inanities

     stay away from Gallo

         Jugs

Of purple wine

Steer clear of the Captains

Patched up Caddy

   By the Oakland library

bookstore

Near the jail

   "Why were those men waving at me?"

"They're prisoners"