Cashed it in

For nothing

No hopes

No dreams 

You started pretty good

But the horse pulled up lame 

You in your silks busted on the turf

Blood in your eyes

Head cracked open

You pulled yourself up

Legs like rubber

"I'm good"

 Oh Thank Heaven

For 7-11

NAOMI

FILES

1992

 

Google drive

  

   lost intransigent 

OCD spectrum monkey

It ain't defamation if it's true

  sorry 

      But it's not our job

   You can do battle w the world

and never get it

EXACTLY

 Kerouac

  Lost Dreams 

    - lost poems

Lost days 

  In a narrow

    Wavering

toward nothingness 

No Nirvaha 

Menhir 

  Prayer to the dirty chair

The dirty rocking chair 

Yer ma

Hah

 Stupid 

  waves 

of stupidity

     they never end 

          One after one

  some are big

But they're always there

Always coming

  All you can do

is walk the fuck away

 

 I justified my cynicism 

Easily done

"If you're not cynical you're not paying attention"

Some valid points there 

All things considered

 You paid the price

you avoided it all

It was just too much

you saw where it was headed 

and your negativity won again

you lived your fucking life

Who cares?

 Calistoga Speedway

Closed and out of business

trying to sell it off to housing developers 

So we were trespassing-

Everything is still there-

Like a giant red fifties gasoline truck

You thought it was a fire truck 

You climbed in

It wasn't locked 

a few small spider webs

Rolled down the window

"Look at me I'm a badass"

 You are

a dirty dish 

in the drying rack

greasy slippery slimey

in a place for supposedly clean plates

you washed it but

You didn't clean it

That would require a slight

effort on your part

and a slight respect for anyone wanting to use it

and expecting from its location 

to be clean

You are a dirty dish,

that, and an asshole.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Rising like a phoenix

I carried my staff

Through the desert

-Cactus- like snakes 

Slithered everywhere 

devouring newspapers

and old hamburgers

I rose like Tucson

And took the Hwy 37 out

past the old pickle cemetery

Lots of good pickles

Gone

What can you do?