shredded 

   dead and dumb

   piles of orange peels

      and bananas 

     in my mind

   I'm amazed by normal behavior

    but it makes me ill

     So try harder to bust your brain

       take another pill

         buy more books online

           they'll pile up 

              It's not normal

                 But for some reason

                    I love it

                       My chaotic mess

       

 

 Can't believe 

   the news today

   Junk

   junk

   junk

   America

                land of freedom

        Blah blah blahski

                          Das Vadanya komradeski 

Shine yer choos 

      eat yer beans

       Wipe your mouth

   with new Covid napkins

    By Beatrice!

          Ho hum

    Honhu

      Kawasaki

         Let's get going

     The dole won't last forever

 

 bliggity 

     blig 

bop

  borehole

   Smigma 

smegma

  delta tau

Poop in the rain

what little there is

on park exercise equipment

no one's out   Usually people all around

time for some crimes

Crime time 

  Say it ain't so Joe!

Yeah you know what the drill is ya bonkabilly

now down on all fours and start digging!

What 

   Oh tangential vectors

crime time

   Crime time is a wonderful way to pass the day

stealing big bottles of Excedrin Extra Strength

    Make that pain go away

     Crime time

will reward you 

   Crime time loves you

Crime time is holy

 The wafers of heaven are blessed

   In crime time

It supplicates 

   It saturates

      It steadies

the soporific eases

The nuanced 

   Stymies unholy glances

Etc

Etc

Etc

 

 I can't remember much

just what there is

memories of memories

of memories

lost in the comic dust

Of newsreels and baking powder

  there was a giant Crisco jar

in the cabinet

freaked me out

What is that white gloop?!

My memories -

Put it in cookies

so they snap

 put my thoughts in pies 

    so they're not too sweet

   The flaky crust

that's me 

   Crumbling on the table 

On the floor

  for the dog

 down

     down

down

    that

         rabbit hole

           Again

  And 

  Again

    And where

         Has it led

   right back 

    here 

     to Wiltshire &

33rd

    oh lazy 

      day

     got up 

   at 4 am

      Ate corn flakes

     and 

        cold coffee

    Went back to sleep

The sky

  Is whispering

My name 

   In the clouds

    It's stalking me 

Everywhere I go

It watches

My pathetic existence 

 And sighs

    It says nothing 

Just keeps on watching

Very frustrating

It's due for a murmur 

   A patter

       A pittance 

   It's due 

to cause a landslide

   and bury 

every reminder of my existence

 

 

 I have crawled

On stupid lies 

broke my glasses on the sight of you

treasured your bored sighs

But to no avail 

Rents due honey

Get out there

 Okay

They're not all winners

but I'm

Out there trying!

or rather inside in bed kinda doing something

It's a job

I get paid well

in sand and fleas

  The old movies keep you alive

    that one about the guy on a desert island just hanging out

Who was in that

I forget 

It was on tv I was like fourteen

anyway that's me

I'm that guy!

In the movie 

Don't believe me

See if I care!

 Please

 sorry

   say no mo 

    No 

no

no

  It's 

a 

 broken record

skip skip skip

   smile 

     my teeth hurt

  I never laughed

    I got caught up 

       I'm pretending

    this isn't real

       I'm shying away

       I'm loose 

   but not free

     I've tried 

    I've lied

    I've poured salt on wounds

      licked some

       I'm a leopard

 in the guise of a marmot

      I'm fat 

         I'm stupid

       I'm illegal 

 Pictorially

  pigeon holed

down that rabbit hole again

  regardless of seasons 

Niecephore Niepce (is that spelled right?)

   Brassai 

Winslow Homer?

Nope wrong

  Kertescz !

Some would say 

Nope

    Photographer of Paris streets cobblestones

rats

  women made up drinking wormwood 

green stuff

with sugar

  My memory is going

     fading like a color photograph left in the sun

Like the photo of Buzz Aldrins family left on the moon

  I was here

     New England Color Lab

- hired as a custom printer

  To put couples in song sheets

We've only just begun

  Picture of the groom unzipping the brides dress

In a red keyhole

    

 I just keep cranking out the same crapola

Nothing new

hardly original

just vomiting up the daily dirge

It keeps me off the sidewalks

  I lived on Linda street in 1985

   In the mission

    worked at a bookstore for I think like five dollars an hour

  the shipping guy in the basement was some kind of old movie genius he knew every character every actress from every old movie

  The other clerks were literary book nerds I thought I was well read until I met these guys

  The manager had been moved from the Modesto store to the new store in the city. The regional manager was a little short guy who seemed intent on making her life suck.

  On my birthday she and I took the ferry to Sausalito and got hammered. It was a good time. We got back around three and the regional manager was there and was fuming. She didn't care. 

"Fuck him" she said later

 Oh 

hello

  broken

    fuck it

   worlds 

F'ed 

Up

     go 

To

Your 

Sovereign 

Nation

 Jefferson

    National Bird

    Middle finger

        Hoo hah

   And such

   I've forgotten what the point was

Maybe there is no point

 It's a mystery

      a conundrum 

     Conjured

      From 

       a cantaloupe 

an apparition 

That thing

whattaya call it

 Thingamajig

     like a Frazetta painting

Red Haired Vikings

battling with battleaxes 

against a dark haired 

barbarian

Who'll win?

 Purgatory in my brain

Yellow 

    blue 

      No time 

for all that matters 

wrinkles on my ass

   wristwatch running fast

what time is it

     time to forget the sin cosin hp 45 

days of Baughmann's plastic life size horse

   a 32 caliber Colt in the drawer

     It's not an antique

         She cried on Xmas

  because he gave her a cubic zirconium diamond ring

What a cheap bastard

  He always said Buy the best

 Towering pylons

of electrical antipathy 

no brains

No dogs

No puppies in my room

Yip

   Bark

  Bark 

Bark

  Yap yappity grrrekl

   Towering meads

of sensory dreams

endrogenesis and 

  downward sleeps of nothing but repeats 

 and over

    again so 

  My leg itchs 

And bark

Bark grrsselp

  

 I think I'm sick

I got brain fog

Like this hazy day

Back hurts 

Wah wah wah

Bought pork chops

and cooked one in the microwave

A little tough

but quick

Bal bla lah

Wah wah wah 

Whoopsy doodle

 hazey 

   hello dia

plead with the sun

    why

     why

   plead for or with the nobodies

the somebodies have it

    Whoever they are

                 I seen long ago 

mountains

and birds

  seen myself turning to dirt

     seen friends vanish

         where'd they move to?

I'll call it Portland

  Is he dead?

Nope Oregon

    Just thank god it's not LA

horned devils 

flashy suits 

Hot as hell

   Always on fire 

    Inventors of smog

      In the valley

        Muffler shops everywhere

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