catching the stars of a fleabit morning

We sleep too late

the pills we took finally making 

time inconsequential or something

so shredded wheat milk bananas

and COFFEE 

and dreamlike thoughts of a midwest man

Unmarried in the religious sect

he seemed sad and lonely

corn and turkeys and giants tractors

 

 I walked to Montgomery station

2.6 miles 

Then I took BART to 16th st

got a taco

Woot

 Granted ok

I think I'm pretty freaking fucked up

but I'm just a regular person

or maybe not

Or

I'm a genius!

A mad man 

In the form of a white Anglo sexing precedent

Beknighted by the Queen

Queen of marigolds and poppies

And King Manzanita 

in his frosted low grade coal mines

309 miles from the oceans 

and thousands of tiny shells outside his barrow homestead 

 

NYC 2024

 

 The heart of nothing

Was left to you

In the barricaded libraries

of paperbacks 

James Thurber, Arthur Cowell, 

and others 

You'd lain there with a friend  

tripping on the barricaded lsd

and saw a pattern on the white wall -

A piece of marble glued above the fireplace 

with sealer used on atomic bombs

your dad said proudly

Projectiles with depleted uranium he said 

would penetrate the beveled armor of Russian tanks -

The pattern

Which both you and your friend saw 

was just a ski logo

repeated K2 K2 K2 K2 K2

 Back

     back

     back it up

midwest 

days 

   day-o 

   warm and sunny

and white

cheese curds

 And fragile chips

 wagon wheels

and religious sects speaking German

Corn 

     Corn

    corn

more corn

and beans

   Vintage shops 

antiques

  $4 Charlie Brown mug

 

 

 Tecate moves

in frightful spasms 

reminiscent of your aged father

in the room 

cared for by pinoy workers

so nice

and always so much food

more lumpia?

 

 

 Yesterday

Time

Moved like a young woman's legs

Slippery long 

Encased in a pile of mud

As she screamed for help

 (SAD POEM #1)

                   sadly

grey morns

in spite of you

I slept thru

   times of trouble

mother Mary didn't come 

To you 

Or anyone