I crafted 

An unholy burden

and waited for time to catch it

But it wasn't in the stars

So fuck it

 

 Im sick

Of my mind

Worries 

about fucking nothing

Lame 

Saw a bumper sticker

Keep Colorado Springs Lame

Clear me!

Country roads!

Your truck sucks!

Wipe my brain

I need Ayahuasca

In Sunol 

Niles Canyon

Keep me from being lame all the time

Where is my brain?

I'm going to NY

 I capitalized

on future ambiguities 

try not to waste time

    I was a forgotten son

    I camped by the side of the highway

   Who are you?

No matter there's booze in the car

"Fuck it!"

We left the golden acres

And headed to

Perdition-land

 

 HOME MOVIES IN DALLAS

 

 Dipsy Galespea

 

 Stressed

Depressed

anxiety wtf

drank a lime margarita

Put an old tune into GarageBand

and addded organ

I don't know how to play organ

But it sounded okay

Life fucking goes on

 

 1975 

I played on the Elks Lodge 

Babe Ruth league baseball team

High school kids 

13, 14,15

And so it goes

 I eclipsed 

my bygones

and left a salted prayer

Mom said you have a story for everything

a week before she died 

guess that was the dementia

flaring up

Couldn't have been a moment 

of lucidity 

 

 

 My camera stopped

Working after I took a picture of you

At the magazines 

Dark hair slicked back

Tall and thin

John mistook your Coca Cola 

For his 

And never said a word

about the whiskey

 You

storied persuasion 

Left to the Marines

Semper Fi

and crying 

At Camp Bixby

 Casualty

influence; a morass 

Of A-holes,

Trying their times

Left untold 

Spiral stairs

  Spinning; creating

A never ending thought 

   channeled through igneous 

Thru Robinson Jeffers

   beaches; like sunburned children

And sand in the car

   Wet towels 

and spilled root beer

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Captured strawberries 

in the DMV parking lot

  shrimp dumplings (shi mai?)

W Peets dark roast

Sitting at plastic picnic table 

Older couple looked brother and sister

Daughter and boyfriend not having a good time 

 arguing softly in foreign language

Cut him loose I thought

With his 94117 satchel

Parents has wandered away

 

 I went and saw a documentary 

about Kurt and what's her name Love

Kind of inflammatory doc by some weasel

Her Dad Hank Harrison was interviewed

and said she might have killed him 

Dale Crover was a friend of a friend 

and he went with us

He had played drums on some early Nirvana tracks

He didn't say much about the doc after but

He told us how he got chosen to be a young Neil Young

In a video

Said he just dressed like he always dressed

 Was

Questioned pivotal Atlantic 

sources for media disparity 

Snapped

Like 

Bananas 

In a symbiotic transactional "relationship"

Take the keys

Take the car

Spread your legs

Like Cleopatra 

Marc Anthony

In a rare breed sigh

You swore you'd change!

But you never did

 

 

 

 Mirror canyon

egg

Faced 

    principles 

Of Kodaly ti ti ta

   Praise the lord

   Bitumen 

and Ovid

In deep embrace

Eye shots twice a month 

    In ratty Telegraph shit hole street

Carls Jr

  Praise the lord

For smallpox

  And mi

Mumps 

Ring around the rosie 

Pocket full of poseys

   Milk shakes and 

OJ don't do it