Im sick

Of my mind

Worries 

about fucking nothing

Lame 

Saw a bumper sticker

Keep Colorado Springs Lame

Clear me!

Country roads!

Your truck sucks!

Wipe my brain

I need Ayahuasca

In Sunol 

Niles Canyon

Keep me from being lame all the time

Where is my brain?

I'm going to NY

 I capitalized

on future ambiguities 

try not to waste time

    I was a forgotten son

    I camped by the side of the highway

   Who are you?

No matter there's booze in the car

"Fuck it!"

We left the golden acres

And headed to

Perdition-land

 

 HOME MOVIES IN DALLAS

 

 Dipsy Galespea

 

 Stressed

Depressed

anxiety wtf

drank a lime margarita

Put an old tune into GarageBand

and addded organ

I don't know how to play organ

But it sounded okay

Life fucking goes on

 

 1975 

I played on the Elks Lodge 

Babe Ruth league baseball team

High school kids 

13, 14,15

And so it goes

 I eclipsed 

my bygones

and left a salted prayer

Mom said you have a story for everything

a week before she died 

guess that was the dementia

flaring up

Couldn't have been a moment 

of lucidity 

 

 

 My camera stopped

Working after I took a picture of you

At the magazines 

Dark hair slicked back

Tall and thin

John mistook your Coca Cola 

For his 

And never said a word

about the whiskey

 You

storied persuasion 

Left to the Marines

Semper Fi

and crying 

At Camp Bixby

 Casualty

influence; a morass 

Of A-holes,

Trying their times

Left untold 

Spiral stairs

  Spinning; creating

A never ending thought 

   channeled through igneous 

Thru Robinson Jeffers

   beaches; like sunburned children

And sand in the car

   Wet towels 

and spilled root beer