I keep waking up at 4 am

It's nice and quiet 

except when the garbage men come

  It's like a Coen bros movie

I don't know why

but at 4 am they come banging down the little 

alleyway and drag the garbage cans out 

I'm on the third floor of a pretty tall building 

High ceilings

Railroad flat

I'm by the dining car

 of this train/aparment

   right above the garbage cans 

     Next stop Phoenix

       Then off to Salt Lake

          We lost Dale somewhere near Ely

              He said he'd had enough

                 I heard he's tending goats in eastern Nevada

        Had a good steak and eggs breakfast near there

 Sneaky Pyrenees 

in ice cold 

Eyes

   you say goodbye 

but it's another hello

     and the rain and mud make it difficult

to walk to the grand castle in the French isle

Ile de bloobitybloo

   and your friend wouldn't drive his Fiat

with Las Vegas plates; too far he said

 and you couldn't disagree 

      but you could have reminded him why he even

had it there in Brittany

  so we went to the concrete Nazi submarine base

at St. Nazaire instead

 SHARK TABLE

 Laughing dogs don't pay for shirts from Nepal

But dogs don't laugh

so well,  I mean ...you get it...right?

I'm not gonna try to fucking explain ... everything

"Everything" sucks

Except sometimes shirts from Nepal

so now we see eye to eye

We can move on and forget all this bs

 Okay 

so maybe 

I've gone too far

too far in one direction

and maybe I should pull it back...

   for everyone's sake.

To which I say-

Fuck everyone!

Thank you and have a good night.

 

 

 

 I'm thinking

       I'm stinking

         fuck you

      and ewes 

         Bb and eweself 

             can flood the plains

                 and the pains 

    and 

THE GOLDEN SHORES 

right?

    Ah

    who asked ya?  

     No one

     nat's who!

        I'm jinking

     Steerinking 

   cosmoplacating 

    gerds and sober 

    triads

         complex

        Flat 13th  

NO JAZZ!!

     Sidney Bechet!

fuck dat

    smoke a stogie

         Eat a ham and cheese sandwich

Go die

     for all anyone cares

        read about it in

  Nospaper News 10 c\

 

 Fat marmots in town

two yellow haired mountain dwellers

have appeared in the Bay Area and are being cared for

By Yggdrasil Wildlife Care 

   Yggdrasil was the Nordic Tree of Life and spanned some eight planets? realities? named for Odin's steed 

   where did the marmots come from? How'd they get here?

Marmots are known to crawl under motor vehicles and chew the parts for the salt - might have drank some anti freeze passed out and were carried away when the vehicle took off 

  Marmot groups are known as "a madness" and single marmots lose survival help if they are out of their madness. The madness signal predators and co-hibernate so surviving a winter would be difficult on their own. They also would not be readily accepted into a different madness making re-wilding difficult.

  

 

 I'm old

and tie-yud 

Too addled

to speak clearly 

what?

I hear a lot

I guess I slur my words

my brain has gotten lazy

Too much work to 

CLEARLY ENUNCIATE EACH FUGGING WERG!

See? 

I should drink 

Then at least I'd have an excuse

You're slurring!

Boggle uh vokka 

 Death Army of

Sorority sistahs 

blond green eyed athletic

marching with panzer precision

     Mookkkkkkk

Truly a beneficial heartthrob

I collapsed IN Sunoco

drank a Mountain Dew and walked back to the whorehouse

What's the score?

Peons 3 - Gladiators 247

Prime numbers are racist

See like seven God in heaven

YOU STOLE A PACK OF CUM GUM WHILE PLAYING PINBALL AT 7-11

And now your car is gone.

 A crowd like a pentangle 

or a pentagram

in the square in London

outside the SA embassy

Who was Trafalgar?

No one knows. 

Probably a great general or ships captain

Imperializing left and right

and here we are 

protesting Apartheid

w Rev. Jesse Jackson orating 

and five marches are converging here

Trafalgar Square

And Jessie and I with our luggage and LL Bean jackets

just in from Paris 

via La Havre

and the Cliffs of Dover

and the police in riot gear surge

and the protesters retreat 

Then they surge and the police retreat

Back and forth they go

We took our bags and got out of there

 and you're walking again

to anywhere and nowhere

drugged out guys on the sidewalk

With three quarts of Ben & Jerry's

Life is like that

Ice cream melts 

as you are high as fuck

no happy song

No Christmas cheer

No Great Pumpkin

not today

 and yer just 

lettin it slip on by

There's no pizza for the mice

There's dirty dishes piled high

There's no washer or dryer

Argentina is calling

But you buy cat boxes

There's no fury

There's no sleeping in the afternoon

with the door open 

the dog is barking in the backyard

Yer planting plants and making plans

Happy Sunny Garden sign

made in Big Sur

Still there 

 

 Sleeeeeeep

Like no one

   And    Now

You're 

  the 

   cloudy day

    Sigfried has gold rings

and lives near Central Park

       Your gloves don't match

One looks vaguely Scandinavian 

Where did you get it

You don't know

 Sunday

7:30 am oof

      slept too much

Zzzzzzzzzzxzzx

  

 I'se 

low 'n

tired 

I'se

low n

down n 

out

I'm 

older 

than 

the s-

stars 

   pinpoint holes 

in a

night's 

eye

  some

   wink

 some 

    blink

     some 

   shoot

   And go to jail

Some ignore you

   some of your

  Bestest frenz 

burn out 

Fizzle

   Super nova

     Black star

   red death nova 

      Red gaseous mercury

    atmosphere

Ise

  Got a 

Achey

  Eyebone 

From 

Lookin

  for 

My 

Friends

   stars

 A plACE

Say   Peaceful reminder

    Try the still waters 

nope not here

  I got out

Sub tried begats 

Crime is no headliner 

Leave it!

Borrow the keys

Nothin here sorry

 

 Virgos

mostly September

    I in August

can't see the forest for the trees

analytical they say

Who nose

Copernicus

     Euripides

         Klays Von Bulow

Try to remember 

The evening star 

      Little Dapper

          shining in SD

       corn ferget that palace

I laughed and she got offended

  "Who would laugh at the CORN PALACE?!"

Who wouldn't?!

     Ah Stars 

bright and shiny 

   shooting like fireflies

Zzzzzzzzzrrrrppp

  Who left the DOOR OPEN?!

 Shut yer 

   pie hole 

asshole!

 Sloopty doo

  sloopty day

broken sea shantys

  and steak tacos w lime 

and dried out cut radishes

   the pier is

closed for your safety 

pylons rotted

  no maintenance no care

just rotted by the sea 

   no walking out there 

bicycles everywhere 

and then sea side bay side

Fisherman's shops

of gidgets and gadgets

  plates for Nora

  and tshirts 

Tshirts 

SF  

  San Francisco 

Stab Fracktictoe 

   no more walking 

Alcatraz out there 

   waiting 

Like your mother at home

 

 I've tried 

  to not align

and have been nostalgic

for the shadows

    in old magazines

      some say it's a fools errand

         even fools have errands

       but the pages are stuck together

           you left it in your clubhouse

         you burned your thumb

    trying to seal the rope

  auto asphyxiation will have to wait

   sometimes you just can't get it together

to play the trombone

   with the Tonight Show band

 

I've seen 

    66

it came about 

    near the end of Virgo 

         I'll live to 666

       if the devil wishes

         is that six hundred more years!?

           please no

              the devil works his ways

                 I made a deal with him

    but I forget what it was 

one of his tricks

     to say the least 

        it's a candy heart colored demon

  at the door

     For you

 Fall

 begs

   you 

     to be 

             quiet

Fuck dat

        I'm a nobody

   nothing 

   nosuch 

     Nowheres

     What 

       stage

      left 

     Ariel?

       the books

        were saved

          taken away

           condemned and 

                               sent to exilio mundo 

      circle the square

            I forget 

                     the names

just Ariel

         who she

       a character

       in a play

        

 61

  sixty two

          63

64

   sunny ?

I don't see it nowhere

-mountains lion tranquilized

in the sunset 

    He tried his luck at panhandling

got crowed at

  A crowd formed 

he scampered away

no one saw him

    or her

61

   Sixty two

        63

  

 Sweet

   grifts of mercury

apostle to nothing

 save an apple seed

     Johnny was a notorious applejack 

   boozehound

Johnny bought the bank

   and changed his name

       to child's play 

Eeyore and 

  Xenochotitlan 

      shot heroin on rafter row

caught dreams of Mexico

     fairies and fantasy of the dark alley

no blood stained campanero white cottons 

and huaraches

   on

the loneliest highway 

Saguaro and pixote 

Pipian and mole 

Gaby knows the place

 

 Climatically 

sinner

driving to Utah desert

    your truck sucks

   spray painted on the highway

      next to black rocks on white sand

        spelling out lines from the Constitution 

words for the blind

toothless drifters in gas station dreams

"Hey buddy do you got a nickel?"

   fill er up captain take your nickel to the highest land

where preachers eat pork chops

and smile at sinners

Check the tires and top off the radiator

   Gotta get back on the road 

and head to the Devils country

  where the fires burn

 Tourniquet 

    swimming 

pool  

In 

romance 

    daze

      the child smiles

        sunny and bright

         fat lifeguard barks

         

We are here

 water is warm

  now I'm sleepy

Woo hoo

  Will you ever come back?

     My skin mmm kinda smells 

like pool water

  Dive deep

get that torpedo

   Little swimmer!

 

 Nah 

   Bah

BAH

Mahooey 

  drink

Like you don't give a 

     gnats patootey 

  what difference is it

     You might ask yourself

        Late night gal borrowing vape

You're too old

and stupid 

and worried about everything

The wall fell down 

 But you hoisted it back up 

     and learned about the bedding and sheets

    you searched your fathers desk

for cigarettes but he's been dead for ten years

  Chinese lanterns on elaborate rafts 

     You told them you slept there

and they answered with Mass brogue 

 Wicked sick and so on

    You threw the box away before you got to the cashier

and climbed the Via Plastica

  You stole

and walked out proud

and happy

   Hah

 Missed 

surface 

tan majorette 

        Shells and mother mortars

simpl  e explain

   slop

Words

Words

Words

      Earth is no one's home

Please the sky

with simple rhymes

simple times

I try

I played the cardboard saxophone

with Charlie Parker

and some other guy

We owned a cardboard home

on puddle river beaver dam home

Whoops!

 

Hello some day

 I'm 

  a

     greedy

    Cyclone

        typhoon

      waterspout

          breeding

             breathing

     in dead air

         in thwarted hopes

        stupid wasteful words   

  and greedy eyes

Oops 

   Let's start over

How you doing? 

 Time 

    Is 

a 

 ghost

   riding a boxcar at midnight

       drinking cheap red wine and laughing

   Time

wears nothing 

knows nothing 

Shows nothing

says nothing

     time steals your dreams

     and your fresh picked flowers

     It buries civilizations with times dirt

Time laughs 

at your sense of importance

Sneers at your good looks

Shits on your frail concupiscence

    time has no face 

    No hands 

     No second hands

       No feet 

 I know

Too

Much crap

I'm sorry I wish I could write something meaningful or

at least funny or even humorous but

it's all morbid depressing shit

Ah well 

What can you do?

Life has a way of busting you down

Tearing at your brain

and mines just trying to fucking hold on

 I should watch tv

that's probably the problem 

  

 More blustery September

Gray gray gray

   Overcast and dismal

Bleak 

   bleak

   

    bleak

even the crows are depressed

  they caw extra loudly

and crap on everything

     Brown leaves pile up 

while

old men sweep their driveways 

their neighbors wish them dead

   They wait for the street cleaners 

with their car parked on the sidewalk so

  they can get "their" spot in front 

Fucking assholes

   They tighten up their pant belts

and smile at passerbys 

 Fucking losers 

   they bought a 2016 RAV 4

from a friends widow 

  

  

 Im in a prison of my own making

My anxiety are the bars of my cell

The guards wear faceless masks

I'm breaking out

This place sucks

 shades of mediocrity

built into existence

   So what

 Like a butterfly on a banjo

What?

     Like a sesame on a shell of night 

Whoaat 

   Like the turds floating around your bathroom brain

Hey now!

  You stroked the pinion miracle

for superior hp on your standard brand

But no nothing down the road 

  Just dirt asphalt pebbles and hard tack sailor joe

Drive the cosmic typhoo 

  Sleep in a boat

      Swim with dorados and some other to be named later fish 

  Go on now 

 

 

 Living w the ghosts of poetry

I really don't know anything about poetry

(true confession)

most of it I can't understand or not gonna bother with

Sorry great poets :!

Christopher Smart ( was he kookoo? I think so)

That one about the sea creatures/ it goes on and on

 and the one about his cat Geoffrey- pretty good

The Drunken Boat - Rimbaud?

   What's with Native American reference - Indians!

 Leaves of Grass 

   Classic - which he changed like umpteen times - couldn't leave well enough alone-

Auden, Elliot, and whatshisname sorry couldn't do it

I lack certain tenaciousness verbosity

Ahem

Jabberwocky - fuck yeah

Two Roads Diverged by an old white New Englander

Dickerson- gloomy New England spinster rides the horses heads thru eternity

Baudelaire? Balderdash

Gloom and doom most of these guys need a good shot to the gut (kidding)

Rilke?

I wish I wasn't such an a-hole

 Lazy fucking day

Kinda gray, windy, almost rain

I got up early and went to Walgreens

for prescriptions and antacid

now I'm back wondering what the hell im doing

could be worse

Things are starting to look up

My brains being rewired 

I exercise (slightly)

I don't hardly drink or do drugs

Just lay around and look out the window

at the gray sky

and a giant tower for sending signals to aliens 

and people in Tiburon

 Mooo!

    Supper moo jo 

Skallyboowish

• One
• Two 
• Free

Sub par head

POETRY FOR THE MASSES AND FISHMONGERS

Minor League heading AA FRESNO OR FRES-YES

(dumb)

    Cry me a river 

        Mark Twain

            

 They can't all be winners

but are any?

"you have gotten into the habit of asking too many questions"

White lines

squashed porcupines 

Purple mountains majesty

Two marmots in the bay area 

They chew car innards and fall asleep

Wake up hundreds of miles from home

Years ago my buddy worked at Animal Care & Control

I knew he was working late night by himself so

at 3 am I called them 

"HEY, there's a marmot in my backyard and he's howling like he's hurt!"

"It's not a RACCOON ITS A MARMOT. I BEEN TO THE MOUNTAINS I KNOW MARMOTS"

He said he wouldn't come out. If it was still there the next day give them a call. 

"WELL WHY DONTCHA COME OUT AND WE'LL BURN ONE!"

"Who is this?"

 I started taking antidepressants 

supposedly they rewire your brain

and mine could certainly use a rewiring

or a complete fucking overhaul

"Take her out boys, she's done, blew a cam and the rods are worn thin"

"We'put mmm a Mazda in Mr. Williker last month and he's ticking along smooth and easy."

The nurse practitioner mechanic said I could have a months worth and then check in with her. 

Remember when cars had chokes?

"You choked her?!!"

"It was the only way she'd start!"

Vrooom brrp grind rrrrrmble

 I got nothing

Lying in bed at 4 am

drinking New Orleans style iced coffee

out of a milk carton

La Dee doodly doo

outside it's gone from summer cold (not really)

to Fall cold (kinda brrr!)

Brrrrr!!

(Not really just a jacket and still shorts!)

Mmm interesting eh

Bluupity bluuuu

Blub 

A dog attacked me yesterday at the dog park 

I took his photo with my plastic camera

Maybe he didn't like photos?

Came at me barking and snarling 

and got hold of my jacket 

and gave it some tiny tears

Owner offered to buy me a new jacket

I said just give me like $30 (target jacket)

He was apologetic and said the dog doesn't like black jackets(?)

Said he's attacked before 

Also a black jacket

 I soaked my brain in carcinogens 

ran my flagpole up yer moms adu

died my cat purple and red

Go USA!!!

I sank my feet in marshy water

photographed cattle in the hot brown hills

The water rose and flooded the marsh

I camped out in your kitchen sink

burned creosote in your canteen

Ran a few red lights on the way to the liquor store

sober as a marmot

Whose turn to buy?

 The sun burns a hole in my flesh

Every day I slather shit on my face and arms 

but it doesn't do any good

I spray it on maybe that's the problem

I should go full mountaineer and use white zinc

Like I'm climbing Everest

Glaciers are melting 

They didn't use their sunblock?

Stupid glaciers

"We're bright white! The sun will bounce off us!"

Try again losers!

You are melting. Are there hats? Yes it's real. 

Bummer

 

 1.6 miles

28 minutes to walk there? Huh

I don't think so

Who da fuck knows 

Fuck dat!

Fuckers!

Fuckin bull shit

Have a nice day!

 September Song

"It's good to live again..."

Falling light

    Leaves turning 

     Red 

Orange 

  Yellow

Brown

  Black

Nowhere in Vermont

Nowhere in Manhattan

Nowhere in Spring

    Leaves falling 

wind blows  

   Cold snap

you can smell it in the air

  It's a northernly smell

Of burning leaves 

horse poo 

   and bottles of booze

It's fresh and clean

But your socks are dirty

and your fingers are frozen

  "It's good to live again..."

 I'm bonkers

I think I've always been

I don't think my dad knew how to deal with a kid who made shit up and would talk so much 

Mom was non confrontational and would just go along with anything

Great combo for parenting but whatcha gonna do 

Everybody parents could have done better

They did their best

I think

Who knows 

Who cares 

what difference does it make

Absolutely none

 effete 

and over educated

Not me someone

I know can you imagine

What's it like 

Nah

too much 

The variables are Sagan-esque

Billions and billions...

he was a stoner obvi

grew marijuana in between the corn

to test it 

got some seedy ragweed shit

Dad try this thai stick 

It'll blow yer mind

Couldn't understand Underground Comics

Wha?

I'll take the BART bus to Hayward

then in to Berzerkley records comics weird movies

people selling crafts on the street

Hippies and bippies burnouts and

scuzzballs pizza and gyros and patchouli 

Teen kicks for no one

Cigars at Moe's 

I jumped into the pasture

where the cattle were feeding

they got a little nervous

"Who the fuck is this asshole?"

I tried singing to calm them

"Oh give me a hooome where the Buffalo roooam"

it didn't seem to work

"What a shitty singer!"

"I just want to take some photos 

I know you're cows but you don't have to be dicks!"

Valley of the Mooooon

 I can't stop

it's kind of an illness!

"What's ailing you?"

"Doc, I can stop posting! Every day I blah blah blah like my thoughts have any relevance to anything"

Doctor scribbles on a pad

"Take these and call me when my wife dies"

"WHAT?!"

 

 I'm tryin 

   to tell the truth

but it's sometimes kinda flu-like haha HAHA!

Ya know?

   Ah whatevs

      life goes on regardless 

         you have flowers

            songs

               spices

       We all have German Kafka-esque days 

ooh scary

   Let it go 

embrace joy?

Good luck!

Fuckna

  Another loser

Toss it!

DISCARD POST

 Soporific

   splop 

sophomoric

     Sploop 

         spleeezed

 da beetcha!

Catch me if you can't

You lose$$$$

I hate $$$$$$

  Sploooop

nowhere time

Going nowheres 

   No day

       no nothing 

No gas

  $$$$$$

Is this poetry? Hah up yours!

Signed,

 Robert Frost

 MAGMA 

  speaks!

in firey spouts

  of mesmerizing hot

How hot?

Too hot

     Lava hot

Why is it so hot inside the earth?

 dunno

  cause it's so cold outside?

Brrr

Space wants you dead!

Big pretty big pile o' death

Move on little one 

forget the past

It's just death space in your brain

Forget the past 

 ten

eleven

   twelve

    thirteen,

nope, 

   try again, 

       you are boring!

       fourteen 

  fifteen

   sixteen,

I'll say!

     where are you today

     boringtown USA

MR BORE-HOLE

   goin mini putt

  go kart 

     pinball captain 

 and his sidekick

BORE-HOLE

  seventeen 

    eighteen

nineteen 

  TWENTY!,,,,

 Jubjub shun

Take your vorpal blade in hand

  Mire and smire

    In gruesome extremities

 What 

You're no Lewis Carroll

    In maxim foe he sought thought? I ferget 

 brindles

     and bridaled

In steppes of golem (?)

   and gloom

       and great expectations 

           Beware and the frumious etc etc etc

          Look out for the yellow brick road

 Because because because...

   

 

 I puked into a plastic bag

But I think it had a tiny hole 

Gross

I put the bag in another bag and took it outside to the garbage can

Then I went and got coffee

Came home and got back in bed 

Looks like a nice day

 Some people

never have to do nothing 

they can do what they want

Except figuring out what they want

is what they have to do 

Or not 

 

 The Snout

threw up 

three or four times

and couldn't get to sleep until 4 am

but he made it through

He thought that was it

he'd do himself in to get rid of the agony

but it faded and his crazy brain shut down 

He'd stopped swearing he'd never do it again

It didn't work

 

 I lie in bed 

Whoopty floopty

Waves of petulant feelings 

I know you could care less

Say something interesting 

Touching

Funny 

Overly comedically angry

not this self analysis hooey

My mother never beat me

Maybe she should have

Whack 

Clean your room!

Whack 

Stop banging the house with that tennis ball!

Whack

Don't touch your sisters glass horses!

Whack

Fuck those stupid glass horses

You shouldn't fight if you live in glass horses

and it's the Wildcats not the Trojans!

 

 Creature

No

In a blur

In a frozen reality

Mebbe not froze, 

              I got the window

       open 

     heater on

         fan on

    two comforters 

     and a blanket

Exciting huh?

      I'm getting to the realization there's no

place like working out hah

    

 The outlash of sometimes

Sometimes

breathes in everyone

everyone with half a noodle 

   

running it up the maypole

     ruining your mothers drapes

        Murdering the plastic flamingos 

with sheer profundity

  and backwards reason

 try as you might

There's no hope

Unleash your inner wisdom

Your outer one ain't cutting it

 

 

 I went and visited an old friend 

she didn't look too good she'd 

gotten out of a 30 day rehab and she was drinking again

She said she felt horrible until she got the first drink

Both her and her bf were unemployed. She lost her job at the EPA and he was self employed working for wineries.

Wineries are tanking right now, she said, read any newspaper. She played piano and had a couple records out but nothing that made any money. 

She said after the next two gigs she was going to the hospital for a kind of hospital rehab. I didn't ask. 

She said her eightyfive year old parents were riding a three wheeled motorcycle to South Dakota. 

شكس  

  غيث  كونان هيك سف 

mish 

mash

   Morocco 

      stride

  Don't 

     Try 

To 

Buy

cigarettes

     boys will chase you

        In the casbah walls

But no worries

Listen

    To the wails

     at 

  5 in the morning

From your luxurious hotel 

room

   

 

 

 Hobbits on acid

   "I can't feel my feet"

"Do we have any Allman Brothers?"

    "We're not sleeping on a waterbed"

   "Gandalf was an asshole"

    "I think we're invisible!"

"What if the Narnia dudes come by?"

   "Flying around on dragons? 

         Who does that?"

"Let's go hangout with Orcs. They're cool"

The 

grey 

summer

     is 

     back

   Samuel 

Clemens

    didn't 

know 

How

good

he had it

 

 There's no hope

Until there is 

sometimes things work

Lefty loosey 

    The Gods are watching

but they don't give a shit

   round up your goats

pack up yr Coach luggage

   How's the weather in Sardinia?

Hot?

The goats will like that

 I can't stop 

The photos

My camera is black and aquamarine 

And plastic

I dropped it and the lens fell off 

I put it back on

It snapped right into place

Kinda blurry 

Not really sharp reticulation

Kind of BLACK AND WHITE

IMPRESSIONISM!

Suck it CLAUDE MONET!

 The mishmash of Peruvian mindflakes

is everywhere again 

   again 

      again

    yes 

     stupid 

   what can you do

no 

          steal

Some French dressing

      give it to the cat called Kismet

he wants to engage

     but he's shy

or maybe it's a she

   I never know 

       They use no

pronouns

 I forgot

The meaning of Life

I think during a concert at the Oakland Coliseum 

it wasn't yesterday but it seems like it

I saw some people I knew 

We said hello

 I lost my identity

I don't know who I am

so I'm just making it up

I changed my hair color

got my teeth done

bought all new clothes

Got a late model used luxury car

Fuck em

They can't tell me who I am

 I've lost the thread

but it's no matter

I have drugs 

They'll keep me going

My friends aren't friendly

but they're still my friends 

Sometimes that's all you can ask for

 

 

 

 Stupid 

Google 

BS

Run around

     No pics 

Ho hum 

    Zzzzzzzzz