I'm a bummer. My sister stopped texting me. All I do is complain. My blood pressure. My eyes are fucked up. I quit drinking. My stupid housemates are assholes. Etc etc etc. I guess I should just get use to everything sucking and quit complaining like a baby. Waaah my health is fucked!

Go see someone she says. Get some meds. You were medicating with alcohol. She's right and there's more but I'm not going into that. 

Todd's dead. Orton's dead. Rene's dead. People my age and younger are dying or losing their memory. I think well I come from pretty good stock, everybody lives until their nineties I say ignoring my foibles. I could live another thirty years. Jesus what a nightmare!