I captured
Owl Jima
Paths to gas
Stow away
In wheel wells
Fracked
By their brain
Auto accident in their heads
Thursday, May 29, 2025
Wednesday, May 28, 2025
Sick of it all
Red
And Black Men have been on this show
I tried it
Now forget it
I'm gonna have a drink
Dref
Purg
Snurf
Cold
foggy
Froggy
In Pasadena
Heights
San Francisco
Casualty of remembering
Waah waah
Why can't it be like it was
It never was
Why can't it be like it never was
Except on acid
Woof
In a 63 Ford Fairlane 4 door
Parked behind a big rig on Murrieta blvd
Slerg
Vrdf
Ka plooey!
Tuesday, May 27, 2025
Monday, May 26, 2025
Jackson, Michigan
Long days ago
3 time loser killed trying to escape from a hospital visit
Michigan State
Pappy had three kids and was still in school
after he graduated we packed it up
and headed to Seattle
Guppa Guppas pulling a beer wagon
Schlitz?
Dunno I was little
Saw a red sunset on the ferry to Vancouver BC
Sunday, May 25, 2025
Dropped an echelon
What is mmm
sunstroke
tail between legs
capture
Travel
In a cotton balloon
It's Sunday
sunny
I have no ideas
drugs and cigarettes
ruined my brain
I'm just binding time
Similar to biding
But strapped on
Like a bad novel
You finished reading
And thought
no Mark Twain
no Dickens
No Somerset Maugham
no Paul Bowles
Smoking kif in Tangier
the Casbah you'll get lost
Arab me in long shirt things
Paul Bowles
in the international zone
Burroughs Terminator
Squashing bugs
Spraying fumicide
On the typewriter insects
Walk the night
Ain't nothing here
Walk the field
With the goats
Friday, May 23, 2025
Haha
Hailed the cross current
of New Jersey
swept to New England
the Shire of Hamp
master of the pine sap
Elves hat in a Elves circle
An empty circle in the thick forest
a basketball was magic
But Dad hated the thumping against the house
Poor Phd motherfucker
Go Wildcats!
Walking to school in the snow
Oyster River Elementary
Kissed a girl on the jungle jim
Eleanor Boy
Thursday, May 22, 2025
Wednesday, May 21, 2025
I'm no hero
Time is short
But who cares
Millions of people are assholes
and they're proud of it
"We schooled the libtards. Jack in the box or Wendy's tonight?"
A lot of people are just regular folks. They don't really pay attention and who can blame them? Why would you want to pay attention when it's awful?
We all get sucked in to the vortex of hatred. Those fucking assholes. Cest la vie.
Tuesday, May 20, 2025
Haiku #69
doing it in real time
Can you believe the wind
On 22nd & Valencia
HAIKU # Morgan Stanley
You and yers 401(k)
sweet holy uncertainty of the money
Changers; and the temple is for
sale
Grandma's HAIKU #1934
Three girls and a man with a fused neck;
It's okay it may be a depression but
There's Beef Tongue and Lima beans
For dinner
HAIKU ATCHOO!
Red pepper and celery;
You roasted at the lost dreams
You sneezed and waived goodbye
Monday, May 19, 2025
HAIKU #99
Keep a little lock
On tomorrows sorrow
Watch the caterpillar drown
In a glass of 7Up
Ooh that didn't really work
Let's try again
Cafe girls are cute
But forty years might be a barrier
The fog is blown by the wind
Hah not so
Train yourself
To be yourself
Lay down in a field and cry
HAIKU #98
Step back
Quie Chang Caine
The masters eyes are white
and you forgot to leave
HAIKU #11
Go on home
Go fuck yourself
As if that was even possible
The end!
I ain't got no luck
Yippedy Yoo!
I've tried a number of times
but following through is not my forte
Maybe I'm my own worst enemy- who knows?
I guess I thought it would be easier
but no
nobody gives a shit
You have to forge right on past that
Sell the sizzle!
Fuck that
I am what I yam
and lots of ex- girlfriends
I have old birthday cards
They love me so much!
but where are they now?
Ahh my own damn fault
But they were pretty hot!
Woke w a headache
Nothing drastic. Just mild pain. So what.
The birds are chirping outside. It's a nice summery morning in San Francisco. Bright sunshine, cool breezes of the ocean. I don't deserve to live here but I've paid my dues. So what.
We've had hella roommates. People come and people go. Some are still friends others I barely remember. One guy was scheduled to move in and before the move in date he brought all his stuff and we stored it in the hallway. The day came but no sign of him. Two more days passed and still no sign. We called his old place.
"Oh, you didn't hear? He passed away. OD'd."
We were kind of in shock. We had all his stuff.
His parents came to collect his stuff. They wanted his rent money and deposit.
We were like sorry we had to pay the rent. We gave them the deposit and told them if we find someone quickly we'd give them the difference. They were annoyed they didn't get all the money and took his shit and left.
We called a woman we'd said no to and offered her the room. She said she'd take it at the end of the month.
Life goes on. So what.
Lady Death wasn't feeling well.
She complained.
"So many fucking people and they're all so shitty."
"They see me and they start whining. I'm only 54 years old! Do they think I give a shit?! I got a job to do! Maybe you shouldn't have been driving blind drunk on that mountainous road? Dumbass. It's not my problem but I have to listen to them and they all start to sound the same."
I nodded in agreement.
"Will you make me a sandwich?"
"One of those roast chicken sandwiches with mayo and onions? Thanks."
She grumbled off to the kitchen.
I turned the tv up louder. Walter Cronkite was interviewing some dignitary.
Sunday, May 18, 2025
Spotty
wired eyes
morning
at Bay to Breakers
cars racing parallel looking
for a way to cross
good luck with that
DoorDash motorized "bicycle"guys
riding on the sidewalk
I fucking hate people
Poor me
Haha
Jeez
Who cares
I got my coffee
and a bacon egg brioche
at Peets
no Kenyans yet
Where is the helicopter?
I'm in the vomit zone
at least they have porta potties
Grumble grumble grumble
Friday, May 16, 2025
I moved in with Lady Death
She had black fingernails
and powder white skin
Her lips were either blood red or black & blue
depending on what time of day it was
She rode a 69 El Dorado with the roof cut off
She was continually getting stopped
"Is that factory convertible?"
She had a long line of exes. Their clothes filled the closets.
"Whose was this?!"
"Ack, that was a fat blond grease salesman from Akron Ohio"
"Huh"
Wednesday, May 14, 2025
I was a Fireball guy for awhile
Before that it was Bourbon. I can't remember the name of it but I should. I went through a ton of those during the pandemic. I put the empties on the kitchen table until there wasn't any room left. I'd never been a drink at home guy much but I figured it out during Covid. Bulliet. Frontier whiskey. I'm not sure what the frontier was. Where lands for taking and Indians'll take your scalp! Then I started with Fireball. Not sure why. It was kind of sweet and cinnamony, easy to get down. Fireball!
I had an imperfect dream
all nmmm and
nodding Jim Carroll
Peter Carini
On Lausatt
With his cats
And his dripping notebook
at the Expansion bar
W cartoonist
Who threw it in the tub of soapy water
Jewish Space Pirates
that's all gone
Buh bye
Laughing at the back bar
99 cent well drinks
New book store
we could smoke in the bookstore(!)
All calendars $3.99
"Even this one?!"
Personalities
some clashed
strange bunch
Maggie (her gf drowned on a rafting trip)
One got mad when she found out what I was getting paid. Quit and moved to NY worked for the New Yorker.
Hector
Peter K went on to be an ACO
Cay went to grad school in CT (quit one quarter before getting her masters) she hated her advisor
When I quit to work at a photo lab there were like he did all the work! Fucking idiots
Bookstore Church and market 1986
Tuesday, May 13, 2025
The highway to nowhere
Driving in the morning. Coffee and a breakfast sandwich. Listening to the Byrds. I never listened to the Byrds. It's the road to nowhere.
I'd get up in the morning, hot shower and then I'm off. Never quite sure where. I'll see how I feel after five hours. Sometimes I just keep going. Sometimes I'd have a clear destination. Just got to make it to Rufusville. Pine Oaks motel $80/ night. Sometimes I'd get there at 1 pm. I'd lay down and take a nap then go out. I'd get a bottle of Fireball. I'd drink the bottle in the car and drive around Rufusville and see what it's about. How are they doing? What are they doing? Getting on with life. I'd find a Chinese or Thai restaurant if I was lucky. Nowhere is pretty much everywhere. I should start a team. The Nowhere Matadors. The Everywhere Wildcats. The Fireball Car Drunks. The Rufusville Byrds cd's. After dinner I'd stop and load up on supplies. Snacks sandwiches water Fireball chips cigarettes then back to the Pine Oaks and crank up the AC. Good night Nowhere.
Snoozin' on the backwards dream
Two or three pills last night. I woke up at 4 am and puked. Went back to sleep. I'm not working. I got zero worries but I worry about pretty much every damn thing.
I used to travel- Mexico, New York. I drove across country a couple years ago. It seems like a lifetime. I'm a sour old piece of crap. Good for nothing. Have I given up? Some days it sure seems like it. No booze no drugs pills pills pills blood pressure cholesterol glucose blah blah blah. Why am I trying to be healthy if I don't do anything? Complain complain complain. OkayBOOMER
BOOM YER BON TEMPS fuck n Aaaaaaa
Crumpin criminey Sat mmm
Say goodnight dick
Yer a dick
Yeah what are you gonna do about it?
Oh nothing
Maybe go to Bi-Rite and get some groceries
Monday, May 12, 2025
Coffee and pills
Weird dreams. I gotta get all my stuff. We gotta go!
Did Hemingway have bad dreams? A Jewish man is dating his love! Fuck Hemingway.
My tooth hurts. They pulled a wisdom tooth that had a giant hole in it. A cavity. It's healing but painfully. Pain pills and antibiotics. What day is it?
Monday. My friend gave me an Oxycodone but I think I lost it. I put in an empty cigarette pack.
If you take one of those you don't feel pain. Just lay in bed and nod out blissfully. Life isn't so bad. I can see how you could easily get hooked.
Monday.
Sunday, May 11, 2025
Dream the Robinson Jeffers dream
he built a stone tower
To keep the world at bay
He could hear the roar of the ocean
The screams of sea birds
CRASH
the waves pound in time
and walked the trails of hot days
Hawk spying from above
Rabbits running scared
Mice hiding in holes
Donkey bored and chewing grass
Turtles on the beach
Across
the pimpled horizon
acne scars and amoxicillin
What time is it?
Gahd damn
At the expensive market
the guys in the deli
didn't know what cold cuts are
"You make sandwiches for a living"
No se lo que es senor
Ahh pobrecito
California reclaimed
To the tune of
Cu ca racha!
Hey Pinche
Pendejo for president
I'm joking but seriously
You're racist!
Okay somewhat!
Conundrum wrapped in a muscle car
Hyundai!
Stop the bullshit!
Oh you fucktards across the globe
People are stupid
Smart though
They can rule out anything
Based on what they're told
What day is it?
Fucktard day!
Ice cream for everyone -
Non dairy almond milk oat milk soy milk with more
Sugar sugar sugar sugar
Fucktard bars!
Wrapped in cellophane
Oh why
Who am I fooling
I don't know
Just myself
Me and my bad tooth
They tore it out
Friday, May 09, 2025
Fried
Griev
Grief
Some complacent fuck
With no pants
Comes crying like a river
Cryin
Crime
Criminy
Cadence velour
Keep to the left
But I've got a hall pass!
Tough shit
Cinnamon buns in the
lunch center at 7 am
Mom dropped me off on her way
To Portola Valley
They'd just come out of the oven
Hot and gooey and yummy
Glacial precipice
Who the fuck are you?
oh no nevermind
Just a large double mocha
they don't open until eight
Wait on the sidewalk
Ya cowpunch
rodeo of a thousand spigots
riding great Appaloosa pipeworks
hair balls are your problem
that and these disposable wipes
They cause a mess
Blame it on Cain
I heard there's a new pope
In old vatican town
Coming in on the 3:15
Out of Poughkeepsie
Tuesday, May 06, 2025
Atop Mt. Fargosteen
Idaho was once beautiful
Land of chaparral wood cakes
Estonians Lithuanians and Lutherans
we hunted rabbit moccasins
Coyote jelly on toast
Roast newspaper on airline safety pamphlets
The oxygen mask will descend
Put yours on first then attend to children
Watch out for North Dakotans
And Indian officers of the federal govt.
Civil war
Chapter 2
Hungry and and most have dysentery
Fighting for the mules and the church
How many died?
I have no idea.
600,000?
Did you have a proper death?
faced your maker with business squared away?
Wrote your letters?
Nah I was blown to bits by in a surprise mortar attack while relieving myself.
That was a shitty way to die.
Monday, May 05, 2025
Birds I can hear them
calling and dog barks
Ruff ruff ruff ruff
Can't you read the news?
Shut up
Im streaming here
Car brakes hard to squeal
Diego the dog looking to bite me
Tries to get around behind me
Hey fucker
Get your dog on a leash!
I reported you like a little wussie
He tried to bite me!
We'll send him a letter
Dear Diego
Bad dog!
Yours truly,
S.P.C.A.
Along a certain path
there was a strange old man
He was dressed oddly not for hiking in the wooded
area- which we were
He waved us to come over
"Say, you look like a knowledgeable couple, can you identify this tree?"
He pulled the bush back and directed us to peer in.
Inside there was a street with a streetcar and many people dressed in the clothes of the 1870's. Most of the people walked by but one rather rotund lady saw us and laughed.
"What do think? Perhaps a some coniferous?"
"Nah, it's definitely a coastal live oak."
"Have a good day!"
Sane
Or Insane-
Is that a question!
It's a beautiful spring day in May
He texted a young woman in New York
and she laughed out loud- for real, not just a
lol
There are a lot of lol's with no real laughs
but the thought's there
In TFIA's day there were no lols
Just empty tomato cans and newspapers.
Sometimes you had to walk blocks to find a payphone
and some guy would be talking to a gal he was hot for in Houston.
"Baby, just get on the Greyhound and come out. It will be perfect."
He would keep putting coins in the telephone.
There was no TFIA Shorty
statue in the park
the old Italians had died and
so had the newspaper L'Italia
the children who hid to avoid pushing
TFIA Shorty's wheelchair had grown up-
One was a lawyer in the financial district
One worked in his brother's fish market
One was a heroin addict in the Sunset
The last one had become a used car salesman
In Brisbane
RB's ghost wanders Geary street
holding a shotgun and complaining
about the flies
I stole
the flowers
Fairy Lanterns
Matcha boba tree Oatmilk
The Banh Mi
could have been better
but the light
was beautiful
What kind of tree is that?
I think it's dead
Hah
Monkeyflower!
I washed my feet in the stream
Cold clear water
Where does this water come from?
Good question!
Hikers are our age
or close
50%
carry walking sticks
and are geared up
Where are the picnic tables?
ten minutes
Saturday, May 03, 2025
Friday, May 02, 2025
It's pretty fucking awful
Goddmanmmmmm
Goddamn body
is I swear
working against me
Oh well
It's on me
Not really
but I guess
You can eat like a man in a cave
or we can watch you slowly get worse
here take this drug
You won't be able to eat like you do
or you'll be racked with discomfort
Huh
good choice
could be worse
Always could be worse
Thursday, May 01, 2025
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