When you're sober

and you're not smoking 

and you go to sleep

the night goes by like a flash

There's no awful dreams 

Or waking to mad anxiety 

Mad anxiety so you have to play gin rummy on the computer to put the thoughts of it away

None of that shit

Of course the bad dreams might still be there

I don't know 

I don't remember any of it

But the feelings are gone the awful morbid reaction

just doesn't happen

I wonder what I dreamt about

Probably some crazy shit 

As usual